well didnt i have an interesting night.

ive been sick over the past 3 days i come home from work monday early becuz i was throwin up
then tuesday i had off becuz i could hardly breath and was finding it hard to swallow water then last nite mum took me to the hospital becuz it looked like my thoat had swelled up and i was having massive trouble breathing and yeh so i was in there all nite having test done and all that and they just told me my tonsilts were inflamed and all i have to do is to take some tablets till it gets better.

well i just got home from a family appointment.
it was alrite serouisly i thought it was going to be really bad but it wasnt megan got told to stop being such a bitch it was funny as all hell.

my family is kinda like everybody loves raymond its so weird and fucked up but we seem to make i threw thick and thin.

i have a fucking truck load of homework to get done but i cant be bothered to do... meh

as people might realise by my last entry i seemed to be pissed off.

i wish people would just stop lieing to me serouisly im so fucking sick of it.
i get looked at differently becuz of wat happened. im sorry i wanted to fucking die.

ive said i was sorry so many times bout it. and everyone to my face is liek its alrite we want you to get better then they plan things and dont want me to go and that would be fine if they told me to my face serouisly it wouldnt btoher me, but they dont tell me to my face they lie and plan and do it all behind my back.

i just wished i could go under a rock and never come back becuz i dont think them people who call them selfs my "friendS" would care

I'm SKINNY, so I MUST be anorexic.

I'm EMO, so I MUST cut my wrists.

I'm BLACK, so I MUST carry a gun.

I'm HISPANIC, so I MUST be dirty.

I'm ASIAN, so I MUST be smart.

I'm NOT LIKE EVERYONE ELSE, so I MUST be a loser.

I'm JEWISH, so I AM greedy.

I'm GAY, so I MUST have AIDS.

I'm a LESBIAN, so I MUST have a sex-tape.

I'm ARAB, so I MUST be a terrorist.

I SPEAK MY MIND, so I MUST be a bitch.

I'm RELIGIOUS, so I MUST shove my beliefs down your throat.

I'm an ATHEIST, so I MUST hate the world.

I DON'T HAVE A RELIGION, so I MUST not have morals.

I'm REPUBLICAN, so I MUST not care about poor people.

I'm DEMOCRAT, so I MUST not believe in being responsible.

I'm JAMACIAN So I MUST Smoke Weed

I am LIBERAL, so I MUST be gay.

I'm SOUTHERN, so I MUST be white trash.

I TAKE ANTI-DEPRESSANTS, so I MUST be crazy.

I'm a GUY, so I MUST only want to get into your pants.

I'm IRISH, so I MUST have a bad drinking problem.

I'm INDIAN, so I MUST own a convenient store.

I'm AFRICAN, so I MUST dance around a fire screaming like a savage.

I'm a CHEERLEADER, so I MUST be a whore.

I'm PREPPY, so I MUST shun those who don't wear Abercrombie & Hollister.

I'm A DANCER, so I MUST be stupid, stuck up, and a whore.

I WEAR SKIRTS, so I MUST be a slut

I'm a PUNK, so I MUST do drugs

I'm YOUNG, so I MUST be naive.

I'm RICH, so I AM a conceited snob.

I WEAR BLACK, so I MUST be a goth.

I'm BLONDE, so I MUST be a stupid ditz.

I'm WHITE GIRL, so I MUST be a nagging, steal-your-money kind of girlfriend.

I'm CUBAN, so I MUST spend my spare time rolling cigars.

I'm MEXICAN, so I MUST have hopped the border.

I'm NOT A VIRGIN, so I MUST be easy.

I FELL IN LOVE WITH A MARRIED MAN, so I MUST be a home-wrecking whore.

I'm a TEENAGE MOM, so I MUST be an irresponsible slut

I'm POLISH, so I MUST wear my socks with my sandals.

I'm ITALIAN, so I MUST have a big cock.

I GOT A CAR FOR MY BIRTHDAY, so I MUST be a spoiled brat.

I'm ALWAYS SMILING AND LAUGHING, so I MUST have a great life.

I'm PRETTY, so I MUST not be a virgin.

I HAVE STRAIGHT A'S, so I MUST have no social life.

I DYE MY HAIR CRAZY COLORS, so I MUST be looking for attention

I DRESS IN UNUSUAL WAYS, so I MUST be looking for attention

I'm INTO THEATRE & ART, so I MUST be a homosexual.

I'm a VEGETARIAN, so I MUST be a crazy political activist.

I HAVE A BUNCH OF GUY FRIENDS,so I MUST be sleeping with them.

I HAVE A BUNCH OF GIRLS WHO ARE FRIENDS, so I MUST be gay.

I HAVE BIG BOOBS, so I MUST be a hoe.

I'm COLOMBIAN, so I MUST be a drug dealer.

I WEAR WHAT I WANT, so I MUST be a poser.

I'm RUSSIAN, so I AM cool and thats how Russians roll.

I'm GERMAN, so I MUST be a Nazi.

I HANG OUT WITH GAYS, so I MUST be GAY TOO.

I'm BRAZILIAN, so I MUST have a BIG BUTT...

I'm PUERTO RICAN, so I MUST look good and be conceited.

I'm SALVADORIAN, so I MUST be in MS 13.

I'm POLISH, so I MUST be stupid.

I'm HAWAIIAN, so I MUST be lazy.

Im a STONER, so I MUST be going in the wrong direction.

Im a VIRGIN, so I MUST be prude.

I'm a FEMALE GAMER, so I MUST be ugly or crazy.

I'm BLACK, so I MUST love fried chicken.

I'm BI, so I MUST think every girl I see is hot.

I'm BLACK, so I MUST have a big dick.

I'm a HOOKER, so I MUST have crabs.

I do DRUGS, so i must be making nothing of myself in life

I'm SHORT, so I must be a MIDGET

I'm FRENCH, so I MUST eat frogs

I'm BI, so I MUST like every guy i see

I'm a Redneck, so i MUST sleep with my sister

i have so much but dont no how to write it.
albies going out with jess. that really hurt much to my surpise. i really thought i would be like wateva, and thats wat i put out there to everyone when they told me but inside it hurt so much. and to make things worse he hates me heaps now which im kinda used to, he treatedme like shit when i was with him, so its just normal for him to treat me like shit when im not with him.
poor jess doesnt no wats shes gettin her self in to. but hey its her life i'll lket her deside wat she thinks of it.

I have a boyfriend
his name is matt.
his 20
his emo
his says he loves me.
im so insecure i think im ruinin things for my self. 
i hate it everytime i get in a relationship i seem to get insecure and get cold feet. 
and this relationship i want it to last. alot has happened and i want it to last.
ahh shot me please.

i hate work. and i think work hates me. i wanna to shot KFC in the head.

my feet are really really sore.
my legs are relly really sore.
im feeling really really sore.

shot me

now

please

i shocked a few people on thursday.

actually i shocked a lot of people!!!

wanna no why?

guess

my dads learning how to play bag pipes. he sucks at moment and it hurts to listen.
someone deleted limewire off the computer and mum wont let me put it back on so i cant download songs and its killing me big time.
me and albie broke up, i dont no how i feel its weird, we kinda just feel apart. he wants to get back with me, he rang me about 10 min's ago asking if i wanna go back out with me. his a weird one who cares more about himself then anyone else.
i havent updated in a while thought i mite. 
i spenmt like 4 hours on the phone last nite to couisn james we talked about everything. 
i have a massive headache i feel like ive been throwin up all day and it feels like i have a massive hole in my back.
meh........ 

i have a boyfriend.
i had the best time thursday nite!!!!!!!!
i had the best time friday nite!!!!!
i had the best time saturday nite!!!!
i had the best time sunday nite!!!!!!

Andrea:
She is the best person round. she is nice adn sweet and we share things in her park that need to stay there lmao.
She all has helped me....heaps!
Andrea also mean a fucking hellof a lot to me and if anyne would dare hurt her i would serouisly punch the shit out of them for her!


Jennifer:
Ive known her since i was 5, she is funny and horroblely funny sometimes. She is the one person whos has known me the longest out of my friends. and she also abused lil besty for me!!!! for that i love her for ever.
we bitch about the world, about  different random stuff like why he is sparky!
If anyone dare cross her track they would have me also abusing them lol.

damnit, i forgot wat i was going to bitch about!


10 minutes later......i remembered.
My week from friday last week.
Friday: i went t school come home, me and dad whinged about the footy. then i got ready to go out and megan tells me i look like a freak... nothing new. I go to youth group becuz theyy are going to putt putt. so thats all good. at youth i got told that this chick there likes me heaps and yeah that kinda freaked me out. then i found out this guy whos cool lives near me so its all good.
i get home and i cant sleep as for i have THE biggest tooth ache ever. it comes to 2 in the morning and im still awake anbd crying becuz it hurts so much, so dad gives me something and it knocks me out cold.
Saturday: i get up  about 9ish and get ready to go to jasmine becuz yeah me and besty and that a hanging out there today, i ring mum to tell her as for she is at panthers baseball doing the canteen. and then i ring dad to tell him as for he is at thomas dolton baseball playin 
i get to jasmine and its all good. it heaps fun we started watching secret window. i love that movie.then  we sat out the front and everythings going good. then i get a fone calloff megan, asking where i am i tell her and she goes im on my way and i was like wats wrong wats happening, and she goes i'll tell you when i get there.
andi was like fuck, wat have i done now. 
megan gets to jasmines about 5 minutes after she foned me and i got in theback seat and so did megan and i was thinking shit is gonna hit me and then she goes, maddie, dads had a heart attack and i was like omg...fuck and cryed for like 1 minute and i was fine.  thats all can remember from saturday... im a bit lost on all that, sorry
sunday: i didnt sleep saturday night, i was up and watching movies. sunday was just yeah. my aunty and poppy come down.
monday: i went to the dentist and got a tooth pulled out. the tooth was massive!!! no joke it was fucking huge motherfucker lol had the day off school.
tuesday: i went to school. man dont i just hate that place. i didnt go to the first period as for i went and seen kathy about my letter for the army. i went to drama, i went to agg i went to business then didnt wanna be there so i got up and left. i called mum to come and pick me up and she did. then the teachers rang home lookin for me so mum kinda was pissed off at me.
wednesday: i went to school for the WHOLE day, then i come home and im gettin ready to go out and see dad at the hospital and i get a fone call asking if i can work. 
so i go in to work at  4 and work till 10:46 then come home and i couldnt sleep. my aunty was done too. so i foned james and we talkedfor a while and yeah
thursday: i go to school for 1st 3 periods and have sport off. i went in to town with andrea and yeah it was good besides being cold and shit lol.


so thats been my Fantastic shit week

well, 
i stayed at bridies last night. i havent stayed there in along time. i dont no why  havent but yeah i havent. 
its was fun we went to the movies with shelly(bridies friend) couisn james and callan.
it was fun we seen slither. THAT IS THE SHITEST MOVIE EVER!!!!
it was sooooooo shit. but i had fun lol.
i was so loud and bridie kept yelling at me. it was pretty funny. 
im going to bilitics tonite with nicole and nick and vanessa and all that. im acutally looking forward to it. i no that must sound like the BIGGEST and most WEIRDEST thing ive said but yeah. 
I was on the phone to matt from work last night and tracey phoned me and i was so excited. 
i found a new friend. her name is jasmine
she is in year 8, she reminds me of me when i was that age, besty is in love with her, which i found queit funny, i cant seem to get away from him.
she is so nice and has to
put up with to much shit at her age. 
she is so nice and sweet and kind and everything that makes  a nice person nice.

i have big black eyes lol. i forgot to take my mascara off before i went to bed last night and now i have black eyes lol. 

i got told by Tammy my awesome cousin that it looks like ive lost weight, and to be honest i didnt think i lost that much. but aprently. i have and yeah i was like :O omg thank you. 


im sooooo bored and pissed off but excited.
me and tracey are hanging out next week i cant wait and matt is coming to that thing tonight and and and and 
X-MEN 3 COMES OUT NEXT THRUSDAY!!!!!! IM SO EXCITED I CANT WAIT FOR IT.
and i just rememeber thanks to krystina that we have exams next week.
:(

Any good songs to download? 
please comment and tell me some

She'll fuck you just for the taste!

i made a new friend her name is jasmin and she is the bestest!

i think your sleeping with a  friend of mine!

you still have the mos prettest face!

jenny screams out and its no pose!

Now look how pretty she is when she falls!

theres not beauty in bleeding mascara!

C'mon baby can u bleed like me?

1. When i was a young boy.....
2. I hear the traina comin'....
3. I shot a man in Reno....
4. I sat down to listen to the shoe shine boy
5. When you get the blues....
6. Theres a story in our town about the prettest girl....
7. We got married in a fever...
8. We've been talkin about jackson....
9. Would it be my fault if i could....
10. When i kiss your mouth i wanna....
11. I wish i was the moon shining off...
12. Turn you upside down....
13. He could of turned in but he.....
14. Spindella cut it up one time....
15. This is the story of a...
16. Shes so high...
17. Crashed in the floor when i moved...
18. The pretty eyed boys....
19. Jenny screams out and its no....
20. Maybe im more clever then.....


Finsh the endings of these songs, with anything you want.
thats it

Crying: The process of shedding tears (usually accompanied by sobs or other inarticulate sounds)


I HATE crying. all night all ive been doing was crying and i have no idea why, my emotions are fucked.  and to make things worse i was home all night by my self, 
so i did what most girls do why they are crying histicaly and have no idea why, i ate so much chocolate, ice cream and milo i threw up. i dont no if it was the stuff i ate or how much i ate or becuz i was cryingso much but it all lead to me threwin up and it sucks.

Megan and Stu are so happy, and im happy because there happy but im also very jealous about it, and i hate being jealous. 

i have nothing to write.
my life consists of work and sleeping.
how fun.
ive downloaded at least 50 songs today. at least

I've got 5 new bands that i like.
The Eagles and Coldplay and Vast and Velvet Revolver and Scorpions

1. fresh prince of belairwhile I brush my teeth
2. better days during sex
3. tourniquet when the phone rings
4. five feet and rising after you leave
5. sin wagon because of the apple sauce
6. get rhytem after the rain
7. the animal song at the funeral
8. sweet child of mine ontop of the Empire State Building
9. lift is the way to go
10. seven deadly sins during the apocalypse
11. walk like an egyption where we left off
12. hella good no matter what
13. rebel yell  proclaimed Ms. Winfrey
14.it's oh so quiet while the world crumbles
15. sweetest thing  under the table
16. rock island line before you dance
17. so fuckin what during visiting hours
18.im free (in heaven)right after christmas
19. this is how a heart breaks  is what i dream of
20. taylor before it rains


i re-did it as for i was half asleep when i feeled it out the first time lol
caw_caw_bang 

 

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if the world was flat, would you jump off it with me?
if the end was near, would you hold me?
if i needed you, would you come running?
if i was dying, would you save me?
if i was scared, would you stay with me?
if i was being attacked, would you protect me?
would you really?
i wish you were here right now...

copyed from munchkins03

This all got brought to my attention because of my life and the way its lead me.

I used to look at the person i am now and go i never wanna be like that... then i realised about 2 months ago... that that person i used to look at is now me.. and i see the same kinda of person i used to be looking at me and most proberly thinking the same thing i did.

wat im trying to say is that i couldnt take control of my life until i realised wat was going on in it. and for that to happen i had to get ahold of myself. and god damn that was hard and its still sorta in progress.... sorta lol

i try way to hard and fall way to hard and love way to easily and trust way to quietly and cry way to full.

mine and jennifers plans gonna be great!!! isnt it jennifer! lol the trampalines gonna be great lol

i have this obsession with bryan adams lol
and sad sloppy songs:(
its annoyin me too.

i had the best time in tow with bridie and gavin it was funny as all shit... if shits funny:S anyway gavin got hold of my fone and rang john (mitchs brother) and told him about wat happened

if i never live again i dont care becuz its right now i wanna die..